My words to you

We need not think and we need not try
Whats going on, this autumns nigh

My pen to paper, my words doth flow
My heart pours out, but no tears follow

Once upon a time stares back at me
One day we met, you and me

Great turmoil followed, but I stayed fast
The things to come, I beg do last

We came together, a Sunday afternoon
We'd meet again, so very soon

Together we're drawn, closer every day
Then words to each other, so hard to say

Though I couldn't see at first, it slipped my mind
I don't know how I could be so blind

Across the lines, a message read
My heart rejoiced with what was said

My sentiments echoed in simple verse
Two heart together, but great lands traverse

Our story lives on, in words and rhyme
As we continue towards a better time

A promise made, for this I'm sending
To write for you, a happy ending

My thoughts poured out, all through the air
All for you, my lady fair

I pledge to you, my beauty lass
I'll write words of joy through ev'ry day pass

You give me joy, you restore my powers
My heart, for you, in simple flowers.

My World, in a Poem

A Casualty of war
I lie bleeding on the battlefield
Caught in the crossfire
Between 2 lost souls

When The war is over
I'll still be dead and gone
My spirit crushed
My heart, torn away

You said I was innocent
Then why did you drag me here?
Why did you bring me
And shot me like a dog

I'm no innocent party
You targeted me from the beginning
And now that I'm dying
What do you think?

Is it all a mistake
Did you think I'd forgive you?
Do you expect a pardon
Just 'cause you're you?

I fight to survive
My soul bleeding quickly
I'm soon to be gone
Is that what you want?

I rarely show weakness
Steadfast in my emotions
I thought I could trust you
I guess I was wrong

I don't want to lose you
But why did you kill me?
Exploited my caring
Left me to die

No one can save me
I'm all dead and gone now
My soul is shriveled
You've gotten your wish

I fell for your trickery
Used and unwanted
I played your games
I lost at them all

Say your goodbyes
I won't last for long now
Try to revive me
Its the least you can do

True Grit

You see my shining armor, perched upon a noble steed
I've come to save the day, again, complete my goodly deed

What lies beneath is clean cut
Warm and polite and caring
Mild mannered and not overly daring

Lacking confidence to carry forward
I often sit and hide
Shy to talk to strangers
For fear of what they think

My skin seems thin at times
But lurking deep beneath
A warrior lies patiently
Awaiting his chosen time

The warrior inside me
Rarely showing through
I've banished him to the inner realms
For I fear no good he'll do

True grit is whats inside me
Warrior blood and pride
Grit is what I never show
For I know its not enough

He won't back down, against all odds
He'll always win his fight

I don't have any confidence
To let him wander free

But know that deep inside of me
True Grit is what I be

Dinner For One Part 7

The voice on the other end of the phone seemed excited at the reply. I told her of my qualifications and what I was looking for, and she asked when I was available for an interview. I informed her that I would be in Calgary the following week and was available any time. Excited, I called my mother to tell her of the good news and my new job prospect with a salary that amazed me, $170 a day. I was ecstatic.

Later that day, I began to talk with my ex-girlfriend. It didn’t last long, she told me that she missed me, and that she wanted to try again. I felt like the weight of the world was lifted from my shoulders. We re-united, just in time for her to leave on vacation and me to leave for Calgary, again.

A consistent theme in recent history is my trail of poor relationship decisions while in Calgary. I thought I would be able to break this trend during my next trip. My first night back changed all of it. Once again I found myself alone with my best friend. Our feelings still somewhat fresh, we seemed to gravitate together again. I didn’t know what to do.

Over the following week I proceeded to find myself in even more trouble with women, adding a third to the mix of lovers. I had crafted a strange love triangle, but little did I know the dangers of my actions. My girlfriend and my best friend began talking, and then the truth all came out. It was a train wreck of emotions; anger prevailed above all, with me being the target. I couldn’t even escape my own anger, ashamed of what I had done, I slunk off into the darkness of a Calgary night to try to regroup myself.

While the pot of emotion was still angrily boiling, I attended an interview with a potential employer, the one I had spoken to over the phone. In a coffee shop in a South Calgary bookstore, we discussed the position, the pay and the requirements. After a half hour, she told me that she would inform me when I was needed to start. For a few moments, I saw light through the darkness. I had forgotten the hornet’s nest that I left brewing.

The hornet’s nest was quiet when I returned to my parents house, it wasn’t that it was forgotten or forgiven, but nobody was talking to me. It seemed almost peaceful. The peace was superseded by anxiety however, waiting for a phone call to be sent off to work.

A week went by after the interview; I was beginning to lose hope, no words from my girlfriend, nothing from my best friend or even from the third girl in the mix. It was just myself, alone in a city, broke and downhearted. My luck changed that evening at the dinner table. A phone call asking me to be in Grande Prairie Alberta interrupted our supper. I was excited and ready to take on the world, but decidedly unprepared.

When morning came I was dropped off, at the house of the owner of the company. She greeted me again, and passed me the keys to a brand new Dodge Durango, briefly introduced me to the gear inside the back and handed me 2 cheques to pay for my accommodations. After some directions and happy send off, I was ready to depart for my first posting.